being unjennysided

unjennysided (with the battered and bruised icon)

means that even if i get hurt all the time and wait for things to happen, i should just let go and move on...

forget about her and take her off my system

the prefix un- means reverse action and the suffix -sided means side

hehe

its time to let go and move on, i think she already found her partner and is happy..

its not meant to offend anybody

specially her

the battered and bruised icon means that, well, that i was blinded and i did not see that i am being battered and bruised at the process.battered and bruised by the comments of others, seeing her with someone else and seeing her with the one she loves makes me hurt inside.

but its ok

i think i should be way pass that...

thanks

ramdom thoughts.

she was not happy when she saw it so i rather erased it

though i placed and invested lots of time to make that post i rather put it to waste if that would make her some how angry or not at ease with the topic posted.

she already knows the topic anyway and she was involved in it

anyway to compensate for the erased post. ( rather not share what was in it) i am going to blog something different instead. the problem is im totally blank right now. hmmm. wait, let me think...

hmmm ill post this .gif image as a somewhat cheesy somewhat corni somewhat etc.
i like it cause it a look alike of the pon and zi character we all know.(maybe only some)

this image is not from that said site. but rather made by a different person i don't know who.

(in the preview and while im making this post, the image is not moving. hope that it moves when i already post it.)
(click the image to see the moving image. thanks)

another to share is this stick fight .gif image. i dont like it that much but i wouldlike to share it with you guys. its entertaining and somehow "ALIW"

these images are from my cousins cellphone. thanks to him.

and lastly i would like to share this stupid dance done by nobody else but yours truly. wakekeke. it was a trip by me and my cousins. we were bored and i was my usual "GAGO" who wants to always kid around and make everybody laugh. its a "SINABAWANG GULAY" video done by the author of this post.wakekeke. ('di man lang ako nahiya. wakekeke. ginagao ko nanaman sarili ko)

i was suppose to upload it using blogspot but it was ages to load it. i dont know why maybe because in downloading heros in the background.anyway, here's an embed from youtube.

for other uploadedvideos by me, click my YOUTUBE SITE

for other videos i like and would like to shre here is my MULTIPLY SITE
some videos on my MULTIPLY SITE are our dance at the NECES induction ball, cartoons i like, and the kagaguhan video you see above.

hmmm. anything else? hmmm. wait. ill browse my pc for fun finds i would like to share to the readers of this blog site. hehe

i saw some other pictures to blog about. these are the shirt designs that i made for the organization i belong to, NECES. but unfortunately they did not include my entry. its fine cause my friend won anyway.

SET1



click to view image.
from left to right, the design on shirt, the front design, the back design

SET 2




click to view image.
from left to right, the design on shirt, the back design, the front design

these is all for now... i may already have raped your internet browser and internet connection but thanks for reading up to this point.

after some time....

strips courtesy of www.explosm.net

i don't know. i just liked these strips. its so....

on the lighter side of things

visit my friendster profile. it is updated. added more photos

hmmm. what more?

well

all i can say is

ako ay nandirito laman
nag aantay upang ikaw ay lumapit
nag aantay sa diwata upng dumapo sa aking puso
nag aantay upang aking pagalingin ang puso mo
lagay ng band aid at betadine ang sugat na dinadala
upang agarang pag hilom ang iong madama
imortante ka na para sa nilalang na ako
kaya kayang mag antay kahit na kontra ang mga tao
madaming nagkakandarapa ngunit sakin ay balewala
dahil hindi importante kung maibalik mo man
basta ako gagawin ko lahat para ikaw ay sumaya
dahil ang saya sayong labi, dampi ng kaligayahan
nag papagaan ng aking buhay na iaalay ko sayo lamang

damn. so cheesy. hope she does read this

hehe

anyway

thanks...

her name was xyla

i was in an exotic place, full of long ebony black hair and goddess faces. it was paradise. i need to explore, i need to experience first hand the beauty that is of such exotic wonders.


i trekked the place of wonders. down the edge of a mountain going to the plain. upon reaching the cleavage of the two enormous mountains, i kissed the land. it was spectacular, the place was enchanting, the top of the mountains gave a faint glow of lightness enough to take your breathe away.

i journeyed the planes until reaching the desert of white snow. the sand was fine and so smooth, not a hint of coarseness, i saw a pit, so clean, not so deep, but it was enchanting. the ground seem to move a little as i played with the pit, it was no oasis but damn it was more to my pleasure to have been there.

i then continued the trail i was journeying. i remembered one local who told me i have not visited there sacred place with out visiting the canyons right after the jungle. so i i tried my best to reach the said sacred ground.

i have reached the jungle, smell of the crass growing gave a little ecstasy. the trees above showed little light from the moon. it was night, yes it was night, just like what i have heard, it best to see the wonder and feel the pleasure at night. i continued my journey, a little pause on the way but give a little thrill to my journey.

now i continue my walk, with a grin on my face.

i arrived at the spot that gives much happiness, there it was, the canyon. such beauty, such pleasure as i saw it. it gave my body a tingle and made me stand erect to see more of what it has to offer. the locals say i need to taste to spring of ecstasy and penetrate the caves below the canyon.

i went down and dived myself in the spring of ecstasy, such pure pleasure. now i am to enter the caves of virginity, as the locals call it. i stood up, readied myself and plunge my whole self in. it was the best, like indulging my self in everything good. and at the last minute, as i was about to give out my best "awwww" i encountered nirvana.

it was the best experience for me.

and as i returned to the main town of silk long hair, i asked, what was the name of the place

she told me it was xyla.

katanungan, kalimawan, iniirog asan ka

isa na lang ba ako sa nahumaling sa takbo ng kanyang isip
isa na lang ba akong ala alang kinalimutan at pilit na lalayuan
isa na lang ba ako sa mga taong humanga ngunit pinagbawalan na ng tadhana
isa na lang ba akong haharap sa mundo hindi ka kasama?
isa na lang ba akong tanga na pilit na nag hahabol at ginagawa ang lahat para lang muli kang makausap man lang

isang saglit lang na makita ang iyong mukha
isang sandali lang na marinig ang iyong boses
isang mensahe lang na magpapatunog sa aking selpon
isang bagay lang, makakapag pasaya na sakin ito

isang bagay na lang ang hinihiling ko sa ngayon,
isang simpleng bagay
isang simpleng pakakaibigan na lang
isang simpleng atensyon

na mag mumula sa iisang ikaw


ano pa ba ang aking magagawa
ano pa ba ang dapt kong sabihin
ano pa ang dapat kong patunayan?
ano pa ba ang dapat kong kalagyan
ano pa ba ang dapat kong ibigay

saan ba kita makikita
saan ba ako pupunta
saan ako pupwesto
saan ba talaga ang daan patungo muli sayo
saan ang daan papunta sa puso mo

kailan darating ang araw na akoy muling bibiyayaan ng pansin
kailan darating na ako ay iyong muling papansinin
kailan darating ang araw na ako ay iyong mapapgbigyan
kailan darating ang panahon n ako ay susuko

hindi pa ako handang bumitiw
hindi pa panahon
hindi pa tapos ang lahat
hindi pa ako handang sumuko
hindi pa panahon upang bitawan ka

ngunit paano kung ikaw ang lumalayo
ngunit paano kung ikaw ang nagtatago
ngunit paano kung ikaw ang umiiwas

saan ako lulugar
ano ang gagawiin
hindi pa ako handa sumuko

hindi pa dahil hindi pa kita napapasaya, hindi pa ako sumasaya ng sa kadahilanang ikaw ay masaya


(post note: sino kaya ang mysteryosong lalake sa profile mo?)

one made by me

i created this para sa isang examination para sa isang org. wala lng. just wanted to share it to you guys

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i was supposed to post the composition n nagawa ko about sa isang mansanas kaso d ko mahanap. kukunin ko from my cousins muna... ito n lng muna...
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picture from deviantart

IN THE DARKNESS DESPAIR

in the darkness of the ebony color or despair
i looked for an emotion to accompany me.
i already thrown out sadness which i had held for so long
but to my mistake, i threw it in the same darkness
i am to look for enlightenment
for joy
for happiness
with out anything to see and only my touch to look
i searched for happiness
alas
i have something in my hands
grasped so tight i did not know what it was i picked
to my surprise, it was once again desperation
i threw it once more, immediately
i dont want that feeling again to come
but to my surprise, once more, once again
the minute i threw away that damn feeling
along did i threw something so important
something hard to loose
that is
my
sanity
and
now
its...
(total silence)