Sunday, April 01, 2007

nang mainlab si zeus

XIENAH
(ayan pinalitan ko na po)

hindi kita gagwing trial version ng bago kong blog

lingid sa iyong kaalaman, baliktad ang istilong naisip ko

gagawin ko ang blog na yun dahil susubukan kong mang ligaw sa isang tao gamit ang blog


trivia sa tungkol sakin

1. torpe ako
2. mahina ako sa babae
3. paranoid ako
4. insecure ako
5. takot ako makipag sabayan sa mga tao (kung me nang liligaw na iba either titigil ako o d ko n sisimulan)
6. takot ako sa mga nurse, kasi iiwan lang nila ako, pupunta sila sa states


ayun
pero ewan, gusto ko kalimutan ang mga sinabi kong yan
ika nga ng isang tao n nag ngangalang irish

N-urses are U-sually R-eserved for S-uccessful E-ngineer

kaya dapat maging succesful ako
at
nabasa ko sa isang lugar ang salitang "MAS"
sana isa akong "MAS"
wakeke...

dag dag na trivia sakin

7. hopeless romantic ako
8. apaka sweet ko
9. seloso ako
10. pag nagmahal malalim
11. yakap at halik ang ultimate kaligayahan ko
12. matipid ako mag regalo, resourceful ako, kung makakgawa ng sariling regalo mas ok, special na matipid pa
13. galante ako sa mahal ko, pero minsan lang kasi wala akong pera, poor lang kami
14. mahina ako harap harapan, matapang ako sa text at sa chat at sa telepono, pag tumagal sa personal na
15. i like red, means passion
16. medyo mapili sa pag kain

at marami pang iba


iba na talga ang inlab

"sana nag sisimula sa letrang Y ang love"

(bahala n kau igets, hehe)

Saturday, March 31, 2007

kayo ay mag antay

dahil ako ay nagiisip ng bagong istilo ng pagsusulat sa blog na ito

iiwan ko na rin siguro ang pangalang zord

zeus n siguro

gagawa ng bagong listahan ng links

at aun

gagwa ng mga paraaan para maging iba

watch out for

"MANG LILIGAW"
"Nang maging korni ng dahil sa pag ibig"
"by Zeus"

gagwin ko ito dahil me gusto akong gawin para makagawa ng paraan sa aking mga balak balak

nakakasawa na kasi ang puro emo, gawa muna tayo kakornihan. pero d maiiwasan ang emo, dun mag sisimula ang lahat

antabayanan na lang...

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

i have made a right wrong and a wrong right

i did what should be done

i told what should have been told, but i should have kept quiet

im happy for there is no more pain, but i cause pain in the process

i told the error done but telling it meant worse

i was in the middle of a no escape situation

if i tell, my faith is doomed, if i didn't, i would still die

i dont know where to place myself

i dont know what to do

i just spilled out what is needed to be known

now everything was taken away from me

i did what was right, i told the wrong done

but in turn i lose friends, friends i truly cherish

now im all alone...

now i have no one to run to

yes i have friends but they won't understand

my fear is loosing friends, but it seems im the one doing things to push them away.

i still continue on testing them and on the way, i give them a reason to leave me

now. little by little...

one by one

they all are leaving

and im afraid to be left all alone.

Friday, March 23, 2007

sawa na ako

natapos na ang hell week

natapos na ang 4 hours na exam dahil mag kasunod ang finals at quiz 4

natapos na ang mga projects nagumastos ng napaka laki at shooting na considered parehong final exam

tapos na ang puyatang pag rereview ng mga subjects na walang kwenta

tapos na ang pag gising ng maaga para lang mag aral at hindi malate

tapos na ang lahat




at




simula na ang summer

hindi ako makakapag summer

ergo

tatagal ako ng another 1 year sa ust

5 years ang kinuha kong kurso

4th year na ako ngayon

means

sana baka maaaring 2009 ako grumadweyt




sawa na ako mag aral pero wala ako magagawa

kung me inspirasyon lang sana, masaya na ang buhay ko





maraming salamat po

Friday, March 16, 2007

kulam at sumpa

alam mo ba kung ano ang kulam?

alam mo ba kung ano ang sumpa?

kung merong isang taong malalim ang galit sayo o napagtripan ka ay maaari kang ipakulam o isumpa, upang mag karoon ng masamang kapalaran o kalusugan

ano ang pangontra?

magdasal ka

nag lagay ka daw ng buhay na bala, ipahid sa bahaghing me karamdaman at ibulsa

ipatawas at kung ano ano pa

pilipino nga talaga, naniniwala sa mga superstitions

pero wala nmn mawawala kung susubok dba

(pero kahit papano, gumana. sama ko kasi yan tuloy pinapakulam na ako)

Thursday, March 15, 2007

ipasok mo na. i know you want to

ipasok mo na, ngayon na, bago pa mahuli ang lahat

bago ka pa man mag sisi

at ilabas mo na ang lahat lahat sa pag pasok mong iyon

ngunit kung hindi mo pa kaya ay ipag paliban mo muna

hindi ko pa kaya ipasok, nanglilimahid pa kasi ako, hindi ko pa kaya

ipasok mo na, siguradong sasaya ka

ipasok mo na baka kung ano pa ang mangyari

(nababaliw na ako, ilang araw na akong hindi pumapasok sa skul at nag lalabas ng aking kaalamanan. paksit, dami p naman dapat gawin)

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

nakamamatay na diarrhea

diarrhea

peste

nakaririmarim ang diarrhea

nakakadehydrate

nakakapang hina

kelangan ng gatorade o ng hydrate, kelangan ng gamot

sinusuka mo ang bawat kakainin mo

puro tubig ang inilalabas mo

tapos mamamayat ka ng todo

tapos bed rest ka

at kung hindi mo pa aagapan ay diretso confine at dextrose

takot ako sa dextrose, masakit ata yun

nakakasra ng mga baak, nakakagulo sa schedule

ang mga exams, assignment at kung ano ano pa

absent ka ng ilang araw

kainis

peste

sana gumaling na ako

Saturday, March 10, 2007

sino si chard?

ako ay kasalukuyang nagugulumihan dahil sa hindi ko matanto ang tunay na katauhan ng taong nag kumento sa aking tag board na nag aangkin ng pangalang CHARD

ikaw ba ang dating richard na kablog ko?

ikaw ba ang dating eic ng tem na hindi ko naabutan?

ikaw ba ang kaklase kong napaka imposibleng bumisita sa blog ko?

ikaw ba ang dati kong kaibigang galit na galit sakin dahil sa nagawa ko at hindi ako mapatawad?

sino ang mahiwagang chard

wala man lang link na patungo sa iyong blog, o site o kung ano pa man.
wala langhayaan mo mahiwagang chard, ioniisip ko na ikaw ung taong galit sakin dahil ikaw lang ang bumibisita sa blog ko na ganyan name kaso imposobleng bumisita ka nga kasi galit ka sakin, at kung yung eic naman namin dati, hmmmm, pede rin

a basta, sige, gagawan ko ng paraan na inyong pagninilayan na ang mga talinhaga at ekspiryensang hindi puno ng pagdradrama,

pipilitin kong muling mag lagay ng kakornihan, impormatibo at kung ano pa man.

maraming salamat po

Monday, February 26, 2007

salamat

minsan akala mo kilala mo na ang mga tao sa paligid mo

akala mo maiintindihan ka na nil sa minutong mag bitiw ka ng biro

pero madaming namamatay sa maling akala

pilit mong ipinaparating ang iyong punto, pero wala silang pakielam

hindi nila magawang makinig

pero malaking pasasalamat ko at naintindihan nila ako kahit n sa saglit na panahon

salamat sayo rens, vinx, rob at lalong lao na kay jhed

wala na akong magagawa, nagkamali n ako, humungi ng tawad at pilit ipinarating ang aking bersyon ng istorya, pero d nyo nagawang makinig

nagawa pa akong plastikin ng ilan sa inyo

cge, gawin nyo n lang ang gusto nyong gawin, wala na akong magagwa

gustuhin ko man na ibalik ang dati huli na

cge puro na salita at drama, hayaan mo pag nakita mo ako suntukin mo na ako

hayaan mo pag nakita mo na ako ibabalik ko mga dvd mo at isumbat mo mga mali ko

hayaan mo, kahit ilang bese mo akong siniraan alam kong ako parin ang mali

hayaan mo, taos kong amg tiwala sayo, niloko mo lang pala ako.

makarating man sanyo ito edi maganda kung hindi bahala na, wala naman ng bumabasa gaano ng blog ko

maraming salamt po

sa karagdagang pasasalamat

pinasasalamatan ko si xiena, si irish, si billycoy, si kenzo at sa mga hindi ko nabanggit na tao.

maraming salamat sanyo

(hindi ako marunong mag sorry, mas pinapakita ko na sorry ako, at kung sakaling sabihin ko man yun ibig sabihin ay totoo at taos uso, maraming salamat po)

Sunday, February 18, 2007

realization

i have been both a success and a disaster

i have been committed and reluctant

i have given my all and given nothing at all

i have been a cause of failure and a cause of success

i am proud but i am shy

i am who i am, but my identity to myself is unknown

help me but let me do it myself

for i need you, in a sense i wont rely on you for everything

thank you to my orgs, i have learned my limits, now i know

Saturday, January 06, 2007

one made by me

i created this para sa isang examination para sa isang org. wala lng. just wanted to share it to you guys




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i was supposed to post the composition n nagawa ko about sa isang mansanas kaso d ko mahanap. kukunin ko from my cousins muna... ito n lng muna...
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picture from deviantart

IN THE DARKNESS DESPAIR

in the darkness of the ebony color or despair
i looked for an emotion to accompany me.
i already thrown out sadness which i had held for so long
but to my mistake, i threw it in the same darkness
i am to look for enlightenment
for joy
for happiness
with out anything to see and only my touch to look
i searched for happiness
alas
i have something in my hands
grasped so tight i did not know what it was i picked
to my surprise, it was once again desperation
i threw it once more, immediately
i dont want that feeling again to come
but to my surprise, once more, once again
the minute i threw away that damn feeling
along did i threw something so important
something hard to loose
that is
my
sanity
and
now
its...
(total silence)

remember me this way

image by one of my favorite movies, nightmare before christmas


if people speak differently about YOU, live in such a way that no one will believe them

just a quote to post. baka duktungan ko kung sipagin ako sa blog ko mamayang uwian...

Sunday, December 24, 2006

christmas post







pasko, panahong masaya ang sambayanan. panahong galak ang asa mukha ng bawat bata at matanda. panahong nagbibigayan, nag papatawaran at nagkakasiyahan. nagkakasamasama, nagkakausap-usap ang mga nagkaroong ng hidwaanm ang pamilya ay nagsasama sama. ito ang paskong kristyano.



pasko, mag sabit ka ng parol, krismas layt at lagyan ng palamuti ang mga bagay bagay, exchange gift at mumunting krismas party. kahit ang mga iglesya ay ginagawa ito, hindi man ang lahat, para maki sama sa pestibidad na nabanggit. ngunit wala silang rason kelangang ipaliwanag kung sakaing palipasin ang nila ang araw na ito.



sana ay iglesya na lang ako tuwing pasko, kung saan ay obligasyon at hindi tradisyon ang umiiral sa pag tatayo ng krismas tri, kung saan ang bati sayo ay walang dumarating ng kusang loob. kung saan ay pagapakitang tao lamang ang pakikipag bati at pagtapos ng pasko ay nililimot man ang hidwaan ay nililimot narin ang nakaraang pinagsamahan.



pasko. lilipas din ito, ngunit, kahit anong pagiwas ay wala kang magagwa kundi daanan rin ito.



asan na ang tunay na diwa ng pasko? naniniwala man ako sa DIYOS at isang deboto ng relihiyon ko, sa ngayon, sa akin, ito ay isang araw lamang na ordinaryo.





Monday, December 18, 2006

ipagpatawad mo

magpapasko na

nakikipag bati na ako sa mga nagawan ng masama

nagawan ng mali

siniraan ako pero nakinig ka ba

sana inintindi m man lang ang paliwanag ko

hindi yung ganitong todo ang galit mo sakin

nagpapakatanga na nga para mapatawad mo

gagawin naman lahat tanggapin mo lang ang paumanhin ko

magpapakumbaba para lang malaman mo ang sinsiredad ko sa sinasabi ko

hindi mo man binabasa ang blog ko

sana sa mga nakakabasa iparating sa kanya ito

dahil ayoko ng aaway ngayong pasko...



maraming salamat po


maligayang pasko

Thursday, November 30, 2006

god tower

dahil nakita ko ke vinx ang isang online game na d naman mabasa ng pc ko sa di ko malamang kadahilanan ay ishesher ko n lang ang alam kong onlyn game n pang detdtive at papaganahin ang utak mo

you need to look for the password in the picture that will be given

its a bit difficult, pero no registration needed

here it is

Sunday, November 19, 2006

a market full of nothingness

i went to the market to open up a stall, to sell out my products, to blab out my rants, to share my misery, to show my joy, for you to know my everyday living

i went to the market, to open up a stall, to start talking to other vendors, to have company

i went to the market, to release these damn inner emotions, these damn pain inside,
to relax myself somehow of the tiring days i pass by everyday

i went to the market to make new friends, to interact, to know people. to make connections, to open a new word of opportunity, but to my despair

now my stocks keep coming but few seems to buy, neighbor hope i seldom talk to, they are busy.

i make myself a competition to them, buy my products, but they dont mind me, im no match to what they are selling. im just a poor boy not that interactive im not that open, not that interesting...

i came to make friends.. where are they?

maybe i went to the market, but unprepared, poor in advertisement, poor at mingling with people.

im not doin my part

maybe, thats just how it is...

(apaka walang sense, wrong grammar... ewan. wala ako sa sarili... as usual lagi naman. my blogs dying and it seems to late to revive it.)

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

am i really back?

sa dami ng ginagawa ko wala na akong oras na mag blog.

hindi ko nga alam kung me babsa sa post kong ito, pero kasi ganun talga ang mga org, sa start ng class halos humihirit ng mga actibvities para wala pang masyadong hastle sa pag-aaral ng studyante

[insert bragging rights here]

myembro ako ng 3 organisasyon sa engineering, at meron akong mga naka assign na project na medyo madami ginagawa...

NECES ( Network of Electronics and Communications Engineering Students)
pos: COMMITTEE HEAD

in charge of : (for next week)

a) stage design for Mr and Ms NECED pageant (tuesday)
b) bulletin board design (monday)
c) exhibit design (monday)
d) stage design for variety show (saturday)

TEM ( Thomasian Engineering Media)
pos: Creative Goup Staff

incharge of : (the whole semester)

a) co-creator of the TEM website
b) lay-out of journal
c) possible bulletin board design
d) engineering centennial count down (80-0) days before engineering centennial

ARC-UST ( Amateur Radio Club - University of Santo Thomas)
pos: Web Development Team

incharge of : (end of november)

a) syempre web lay-out

[end bragging right]


kaya ito ako akal mo busy pero d' naman, feeling lang siguro.

kung me video cam sana ako o digicam kukunan ko ung mga nagawa ko para atleast nakapag yabang pa ako lalo

wakekeke

as soon as matapos ko mga trabaho ko ay bibigyan ko ng oras itong blog ko

hmmmmmmmmmmmm

medyo ung pc din pala wala na sa room ko kaya nakakainis. binawi, kasi tv na uli ako. pinalitan na ung sira kong tv

sa mga tao maraming salamat sa inyo sa laging pagsuprta sakin

yung mga asa tag board ko

lalong lalo na si

talamasca sa pag sagot sa sa mga taong naghahanap sakin sa tag board
na idol ko parin upto now, wakekeke

jigs na nag aantay ng post ko
jhed na wala lang
garry tarugo na aliw ako sa name at sa jolibee post na huli kong nabasa
irish na kuya nya ako at bumibisita kahit d' ako updatd.updated na ako
super xiena na still superhero parin
ron kasi nakakachat parin kita, dati
vinx kasi makulit na bata at lagi ko parin kachat
adrian kasi kaklase kita

at yung galit sakin na ayaw ako parin pansinin....

maraming salamat sa suporta pipol

Sunday, October 08, 2006

paolo coelho

im not much of an avid fan of this author but his first book was a great one for me. after that, i was eyeing his other books but loose interest when i read the back covers of the books. i did not like very much the stories because for me it was all cheesy. but i was mistaken.

this girl i really like in school kept bringing this books and i was told by her of some of the excerpts of the novels, i don't know if i was encouraged because of the story or if i was because of the story teller, coz i really like her.



first i read the novel "the alchemist" but that was months ago and i don't really remember some excerpts from the novel. but it was one heck of a treasure hunt with much thrill coming along with every adventure the main character had. he even talked to the wind.



i read one of the his novels, the one introduced by her, "by the river piedra i sat down and wept", it was a bit cheesy but it did not focus on the man woman relationship (due to low memory capacity that my brain holds, i can't decipher once more the character's of the story). it focused on the struggle of man against his vocation and love. it really is a good novel and paolo coehlo really has a way with words. one scene here was when the man gave up his power for the woman she loved. and how the woman almost lost her sanity. you might get in touch with your spiritual side on this novel. (awwww. a spoiler). one scene was when the lady was talking in a language no one can understand and was talking really fast. but she felt relieved and at ease.



the next book was "veronica decides to die". talk about trying to commit suicide but failing. but worst part was that you acquired a condition where you are left to die after ten days. this novel shows how the main character faced life after being put to a sanitarium because of a stupid misleading reason on why she committed suicide. excerpts were when the main character tried to seduce a schizophrenic and ... its for you to find out. the story ended beautifully and paulo coehlo's made a special appearance in the beginning of the story.a realization that maybe we are all the crazy one was put in consideration in the novel, we just don't know it. there are many conflicts and this novel focuses on how a girl changed the life of her fellow sanitarium people. a scene where the doctor told a story, or was it the patient, about a necktie. why do we all have to wear a necktie, when in fact it serves no purpose but as a sign of relief upon getting home when you loosen up the knot, to a sane man it is not craziness, because everybody is doin it. so does that mean that you are only crazy when you go against the flow? another instance was a story about a kingdom where all the kings subject, except for the royal family, drunk from the same well. one day some one from another kingdom tried to poison the villagers by placing a potion to make the people crazy on the well. the next day all the people drunk from the well and turned crazy. having seen the effect, the king decided to make call the police to investigate about the matter but the police thought that the king was made, to cut the story short, the royal family also drunk from the well and they were no longer considered crazy by their subordinates.



now i am reading "the devil and miss prym". i still havnt finished it but it gave me the idea for this post. this novel focuses on how the antagonist finds the answer to his question. set in a peaceful small village, the antagonist tries to defy the living of the people in the village. the protagonist mis prym is was the first to have the conflict on the story, but when she did resolve her problem, it got a whole lot worse. that is how far my story has lead me. an excerpt of the novel sofar was when an old lady told mis prym the story about a traveler, his dog and his donkey. it was one day that the traveler along with his pets were traveling and were all struck by lightning. they all died at once but they all did not know they were dead. they continued traveling until the traveler felt thirsty and wanted to drink some water. they soon approached a well, i think its was a well, fenced by a golden gate. the well was so beautiful but it was guarded.the traveler asked the guard what that place was, the guard said it was heaven, then the traveler asked the guard if he and his pets could have a drink by the guard insisted that he can not bring his pets with him. so he continued his journey growing more thirsty. thy reached a lake/swamp/river/, cant remember, and asked the man sitting the the tree beside the body of water, the man said yes. after drinking the traveler asked what place that was, the man said it was heaven. confused the traveler asked that he passed heaven a while ago, the man said it was not heaven but hell.

damn... i really like stories that are not tipical and gives out a certain puzzle to the reader. ammmm, i think this is already a long post do ill just stop here...

by the way, sorry if i havnt visited any one of your blogs. i am just busy coz finals is coming. ill try to visit it as soon as i can if time permits.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

an engineer's rant

i am abandoning the idea of a new layout for a while

im very damn depressed lately knowing that i am not doing well in every aspectof my life. yah, this is one of my "pagdradrama" post. i just want to release out some of these things out of my system hoping that somehow it will lessen the burden i am carrying.

how do you people cope with these equation?

(stress^2 + family problem)/ (square root of (no. of quality time + happy
moments))

(yah, im an engineering student so im putting it into a language i can easily
express myself out.)

where as

no. of quality time is less than happy moments

happy moments = -(stress)

i want to die, not the physical death, but the death of a personality that is not that much of a catch to other people. i want to renew my life, personality wise. i know by changing that i will never be again the same me, but it will create a new picture of me, the better one( i hope ). but upon thinking of this, i thought of a new program that will take away one's life with out the risk of putting someone else in the chopping block. its some how like these

(this is fictional)


/--! Self Killing Program !--/

death = ( "How do you want to die: ")

stab=0; pill=0; poison=0; height=0; bullet=0; other=0;

while(person=alive)

death = ( "How do you want to die: ")

if (death=stab)

/ stab the person /
stab=stab+1;

end

if (death=pill)

/ drink sleeping pill /
pill=pill+1;

end


if (death=poison)

/ drink a spoon of poison /
poison=poison+1;
end

if (death=building jump)

/ jump from the window /
/ height is the floor /
height=height+1;
end


if (death=gun)

/aim atself and shoot /
bullet=bullet+1;
end


else

/execute death/
other=other+1;
end


person=("Are you still alive? ")
end

fprintf("The person died from /
number of stab(s) = %f /n
number of pill(s)=%f /n
spoon(s) of poison=%f /n
jumping on the floor number %f /n
number of bullet(s)=%f /n
other way=%f", stab, pill, poison, height, bullet, other)

end


i do not expect everybody to understand this smehow crappy program i created, and yes, it will not run in your browser if you are planning to use this program. i mixed my knowledge of DSP(digital spectrum processing), HTML (hyperterminal) and C++ (programming languages);

damn. im bored and depressed. would some one come and jin this boredom. ahhhhhh... i hate being by myself in times of problems. but i am left with no choice.

honestly, i think this is a crappy post. bear with me. hehe (tama ba ung bear?) this is not my actual post but i sensed it ismore important for me to publish this one.

Friday, September 29, 2006

pahapyaw naman


ilalagay ko itong top banner ng bagong ginagawa kong layout

sana ok lng

d naman aksi ako magaling amg drawing, pero comment n kau..

click nyo n lang para makita ng malakihan.



ito ung ibang components na ilalagay ko.

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