Tuesday, February 15, 2011

its been a while...

its been a while since the last time i entered some rants and blurted out some dramas on this site,

only updating this blog cause my officemates somehow reminded me that i have one

was not trying to refrain from writing its just that i have too much in my mind and too much to do that i always set aside stirring up my mind to produce a decent blog post

for some time since the last post, i have gotten rid of "diwata" in my mind for quite sometime, her being happy with someone else, and got hold of some one else, which did not also went the way i wanted it to.

hmmm, how would i call her, i also wanted to call her "diwata" but it would somehow be too inappropriate her knowing the story behind the real "diwata", some how.

is it bad to miss them both now?

"prinsesa", the new "diwata", was almost perfect, some beautiful, somehow boyish, cowboy type, independent, God fearing girl who i met thru facebook, YES, facebook. it was just one of those days that i was in a state of total depression that i tried to add ass many girls in facebook as i can. actually she was a facebook friend of a girl who did not even replied to my message. the funny thing is she did not even knew the common girl between us two.

anyway, we dated, everything was going well, but then one thing was keeping me from being serious with her, religion.

she is a devout born again christian, she told me that her past relationship ended tragically because of difference in belief, so i don't want her to go the same path once more. i was happy being casual, but unfortunately shit happens.

she was accepted to work overseas, which is another factor for me.

i can not handle a long distance relationship.

to cut the long story short, i was left with no one, all my fault, with a girl who met her match there.

well, that is life... :)

but the funny thing is, i thought i have already given up on "diwata" where the fact is, the minute i knew she was single again, if she is, all of the thoughts that are once hidden came back to hunt me. damn. is she the girl, who i can't have, forever?

it still hurts "diwata" a lot when she remembers the one stupid SMS i mis-sent her.

hay... i said to myself that i would stop with the dramas in my life, but obviously, its a part of me, good luck to me...

anyway, posted this first cause it will be soon be over posted by another idea in my mind... about my work experiences, i think that would be a break from the norm drama mode of me.